Today I am tired and frustrated. I got up to pour Marissa a cup of milk and my right side started shaking uncontrollably and milk went everywhere. My kids saw this and I think they were scared, that broke my heart.
On days like today it's hard to understand why this is happening and why my body is turning on me. I just want to be able to take are of my kids and I'm so sick of being in this bed.
The bills are pouring in already and I have no idea how we are going to pay them, much less get a doctor to see me for follow up care and my medicines when I have no insurance. And without the medication I have almost no control over my body.
They are pretty sure that I can get a medical card for April but not beyond that for my follow up care.
It's in God's hands and I'm trying my best to trust in Him with all my heart.
I know He has it all under control but I also know He understands my confusion and frustration.