I know I promised pics of Roo's room but I didn't get around to taking them.
The day started great but as it wore on I felt my symptoms coming back. I have been symptom free for almost 5 days and was beginning to get used to it and remember what it was to walk without a walker or wheel chair, what it was to sit and play with my kids, cook dinner and just do the little things around the house.
And then they came creeping back, not near as bad as they have been but enough to slow me down and put me in bed for a few hours. It's scary because I don't want to go back to where I was a month ago or even three weeks ago. I don't know what is going on with my body and why some days I'm fine and other's I can barely walk. I go back to my Nero Doc on June 10 and I hope he can figure this out. I know God is in control and I go back and forth between trusting Him and knowing He is in control to fearing the worst.
I do have Faith that He will work it out but does that mean I can't have fear too? I feel like if I have times of doubt that I'm not trusting God enough. And most of the time I do have a peace that everything will be ok but other times when the tremors start and I lose the ability to walk I feel the doubt creeping in.
I know God is in control and He will work this out whatever the outcome but when my symptoms come creeping back so does the doubt. I guess that just makes me human, or at least I hope it just makes me human.
Tomorrow will be better, if not then the next day will. I know through all of this He is holding me sfe in His hands as He always has.