Before I started on this journey I would not have used those words to describe myself, I would have used the first ones, wife, mother, daughter, sister,and homemaker.
I am all of those things but I am discovering that I am so much more than that.
I'm looking around my world, including my new blog world and I am taking the time to be inspired by things and people that I would not have taken the time to notice before.
It's been an amazing experience and it's just beginning.
As some of you know, I did not have an idea childhood. My father was physically abusive to me ,my mom, and my sister. At the age of 6, He tried to kill the three of us. I remember that day like it happened yesterday. I remember feeling the bullet go by my ear and the windshield shattering in the car.
My childhood was about survival, it had very little to do with fun. It was about getting through the day without setting my father off.
There was no time or energy left for anything else. So one of the things I did not do until I was 12 was learn to ride a bike. At that point I was so scared and I only rode it a few times and then just gave it up.
Well, a couple of weeks ago my dear friend that I have met in the blogging world recently, Carrie, posted a video and pictures of her 5 year old learning to ride without training wheels.
There was something in little Emily's precious eyes that touched me to the core. It was pure joy, complete fearlessness and freedom. She was so proud of herself and her sweet free spirit shined through her eyes.
I can't explain it completely but it touched me in a way that I would have never thought possible because it was something so simply. A child learning to ride a bike without training wheels, kids do this everyday. And yet this time it stirred something inside of me.
I realized in that moment what I had missed as a child. I never experienced that pride, that freedom, and fearlessness.
So Emily inspired me to start looking at bikes. I found out that they are not cheap and I don't like to spend that kind of money on myself so I figured it would be a while before I would get my bike.
Then Sat. my aunt and I decided at the last minute that we would go to a few yard sales. We pulled up into the first driveway and what do I find.... You guessed it... a bike. A 15 speed bike in decent condition.
I got on it (said several prayers) and I rode it. It was amazing I felt free, young and childlike.
So now Roo and I go bike riding daily. Our dog goes with us also. It's a great bonding experience for Roo and I.
Now if I could only find a way for Emily to inspire Ruben to get rid of his training wheels, there has got to be a way Carrie and I could make that work :)
Thank you Carrie for sharing your sweet little girl on your blog with all of us.
This may sound strange but I feel a connection with her and I hope she never looses that light that shines so brightly in her eyes.
So what is it that you could do to step out of your comfort zone, try something new and different? Look around your world everyday and I assure you there will be something to inspire you to be better, have more fun or just find something you love that you never thought you would.