Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Who Am I ? (a little boy's loss)

I AM a mother who knelt by the toilet this afternoon with my very sensitive son as he was weeping as if his heart had been shattered into a thousand little pieces. All I had to do was look at that face and I was heartbroken and wept with him.

You see, he was heartbroken over losing Speedy, his goldfish that he only had a week. This is the first time he has had to deal with death. He kept saying "mommy, just make him move. Please mommy just make him swim again." I told him there was nothing more we could do for Speedy but say a pray for him. And we did.

I was heartbroken and weeping because I know this will not be the last time his life is touched by death of some sort. He will have to deal with death in this life and I wish I could just take all the pain from Speedy's death and all the future pain of ever losing anyone from him.

 But that's not my job, my job is teaching my son WHO to take his pain to and WHO can take his pain away and give back peace and comfort in it's place.

Thank you Lord for being there with us when we walk through the valley of the shadow of death. You have been with me many many times down that road.

I pray that you will always be with my children when they have to deal with death throughout their lives. I also pray for your love and peace to surround those who have lost someone and will be missing them even more this Holiday Season. Wrap those families in your peace, give them your hope, pour out your healing love on them.
In Your Holy Name


Deborah Ann said...

Awwww! That really tugs at my heart! When my grandson Wyatt was yrs old, he found a butterfly floating on the lake. He was very upset, so I said "let's pray." We prayed for the butterfly and laid it on a rock. About 10 minutes later it flew away! I always tell Wyatt that was his first time raising something from the dead (even though it maybe wasn't even dead to begin with).


He & Me + 3 said...

Oh no...that is so sad. I am almost in tears over hear too. We had to deal with that once too. Very sad to see them mourn their loss. you are a wonderful mother my friend. Beautiful prayer.

christy rose said...

Oh I am so sorry to hear that your son is so sad about losing his fish. I remember losing a gold fish when I was a young girl too. I was so upset for a long time because I thought it was my fault, that I did not do something right or that I did something wrong and that is why it died. Love your prayer at the end of this post!

Jenna said...

Oh that is so sad!! Bless his heart! I remember the first pet I lost, a dog. I cried and cried. Your prayer is beautiful! Your children will most deff. be raised knowing who can take their pain away!!

Ps. I gave you an award on my blog!!