Today I usually participate in Multitude Mondays.
But when I started this blog I promised myself I would be honest about life and not gloss it over. Life is not perfect and I think it can be harmful to others if all they read about is how great your life is. They start to feel bad and wonder why there life is not all roses. Or atleast I have felt that way reading some blogs in the past.
I have a lot to be grateful for, believe me I know that.
But today I don't feel like being grateful.
I'm in pain, my body hurts from the top of my head to the tips of my toes.
I'm frustrated and I'm trying to make a very big decision about my faith. My husband is catholic and it's never been an issue until Roo started school. I have went there for 5 years and have found that all I was taught about catholics is just not true, I learned this by observation over a 5 year period.
I'm considering converting but not sure what that means because I am a Christian, so I'm struggling with the whole converting thing.
I am tired of hiding my physical pain from everyone. No one knows at Roo's scchool just how hard it is for me to go to school and work.
I put a smile on my face to hide the pain so my daughter can have a normal birthday party at Chucky E cheese.
So today I don't feel like being grateful.
I know that is wrong and God is probably not pleased with it. And while I may be able to fool others,I can never fool God because he knows my heart.
So what is the point in pretending.
Tomorrow will be better. God is still God no matter how I am feeling.