Tuesday, August 18, 2009

The Truth

Ok, so I would rather write about how wonderful life is right now but this blog is about being honest, and I'm just not a good liar.

So here it goes,
I'm tired, so very tired.

...tired of the pain, the tremors, and the seizures.
Tired of not knowing if I will be able to use my legs when I wake up every morning.
Frustrated that I can't play with my kids the way I want to. That I can't be the wife I want to be, that I can't grocery shop and plan meals and cook for my family.

Frustrated that when I went to Roo's school to volunteer I had to go in another room because I started shaking and had to be watched by someone until it was under control.

I know it could be worse and I know it will get better. I do have good days and I am so grateful for those but the bad days leave me exhausted, frustrated, and just so very tired of it all.

8 comments:

Laura said...

Praying for you. I can not even imagine how tired you are. I pray that the LORD would give you strength as he can.
Much love and prayer,
Laura

Sheryl said...

i will be no help except to say that i "get it".

love to you!

nancygrayce said...

I'm so sorry! I am praying!

Jennifer @ Getting Down With Jesus said...

Prayers for you, friend. Glad you could feel free enough to be real with us. Now we know how to pray!

He & Me + 3 said...

I can only imagine my friend. Saying a prayer for a great day for you tomorrow. Get some rest.

christy rose said...

I AM SO SORRY KEE! I am continuing to pray for you! God loves you the most!

LAURA said...

Hey Kee... thanks for being real. I know that troubles and struggles in life are never much fun to talk about but you will find in sharing that you help others. Hope your days get better. :)

Carrie said...

It's great to share your frustrations...you are so strong! I hope you had a better day. Have the doctors given you any more info on how to treat this or what's to come?

I hope Ruben is loving kindergarten and loving having you in his class! I'm sure it's so hard to have a 'spell' during class time...but sounds as though you are still able to work through it and have understanding people who can help you. praying and thinking of you often :)