I'm exahausted, frustrated, saddened. There are so many questions that only God can answer but He is not at this time.
Don't worry I'm hanging on, just by a thread during some moments but I know God is still the same God I depended on and leaned on a month ago and "This too shall Pass."
Thank you all for making the trip with us, just as I wanted scream at the top of my lungs or ball my eyes out, I would get a comment from one of you saying, "Hang in there Kee.", "Hold on.", "It will get better." You sent me the strength to keep going, God used you all and I am so very glad you let him.
Just keep praying for my FIL, he's not changed his mind about taking care of his diabetes and our talk was a diaster. He made personal attacts out of left field on me and my children. I was crushed for days then I realized that's not the man I've known all these years, he's never treated me like that and I know he loves my children. Jose tells me he has always been like that but I believe people do change and I believe he changed after he grandchildren were born. He's just in pain, miserable and reverted back to his old ways, I guess. I'm still working it out in my own head.