I've been away for a while simply because I have not been able to get anything out. I can't talk or even write about the things that are bothering me. I feel them building up but I'm too scared to just let them all go. I rarely talk to friends on the phone anymore. I do believe however it's a funk I am slowly coming out of. But grief often comes in waves and all you can do is ride the wave until you are back on safe ground.
We are in so many transitions right now in our life. Hubby still looking for a job. He has a second interview this week, so please send up a prayer for him. He wants this job, it's a great opportunity but it would require moving out of state, and while we have no (bio)family in the town we live in, it's scary as hell to think of moving.
Maybe it's what we need, what we all need.
We have also been going through foster parent classes and only have one left. I am looking forward to that. I think it will be good for our family as well as for kids who need loving caring foster homes. It's something we have talked about since before we got married.
I just have to keep telling myself HE is in control not me. He has carried us this far and will not turn His back on us nor will he you.