A Heart Full of Relief and Thanks

They have finally completed the surgery. The bypass was a success, they used an artificail tube. It took about four hours and he is now out of recovery. Not sure when they will let him out or where we will go from here but at this moment our family is breathing a sigh of relief and thanking God for sparing an amazing father and grandfather today.

My baby girl is very lucky that the three men in her life love her enough to wear princess hats at her pre birthday party when we were there. And they also let me photograph them.

Thank you Jesus for my family.

Update

We spoke to my FIL nurses and they will be doing a semoralpicial bypass on his right leg. They are having a problem keeping his sugar levels undercontrol it was 300 when he got there this morning.
My husband called his sisters and one will be going but she had brain surgery a few months after Ruben was born and has memory problems (and no I'm not making this stuff up but I had to just laugh out loud as I wrote that).
The surgeon will be doing the procedure mid to late morning and hopeful all will go well and then hubby and I will decide when we need to make another trip there but no kids this time!!!

After we got off the phone, I told hubby to put his coat on and we were going some where. He did not question me. He was still dressed and I had my red mickey pj's on so I put on a long black coat. I think he thought we were going to make a late run to get chocolate it being that time of the month for me and all. But I drove him to the church we go to. People pray there around the clock and you can get in any time with a code. It is such a peaceful beautiful place, we lit candles and went to our knees and both wept in front of the cross. I definitely think after that we will get some sleep tonight and I feel so much peace right now.

Thank you for all the prayers and emails. I work tomorrow but will give you an update when I get home.

Please Pray

My FIL who just had an anjeoplast done when we went there (NE) a few weeks ago is now back in the hospital and not doing well at all.
The big blood clots are back in his legs and they are going to try to do a bypass but with the severe diabetes his has just makes things more complicated.

I can't imagine his mom being there at that hospital all alone scared to death, it's breaking my heart.

Please Please friends pray. I know I proabablly ask this too often but this time it's not for me. I don't know my FIL's relationship with God so please pray for that. I do now my MIL is a praying woman. So please ask anyone who you know that prays to please play for the Quinonez Family.

Thank you so very much.

Who Am I Wednesdays

*I am a sinner saved by grace and still seem to mess up a hundred times a day, thank God that HE understands and still whispers "I am here" every single time.

*I'm a daughter who still wants her mother's approval.

*I'm a Protestant,but really just a Christian, who has been attending a Catholic church for 4 years, which is also where I work and my son goes to school.

*I'm becoming a clean slate and learning that so much I was taught is just not true and it's taken 4 yrs of observation to realize that.

*I'm a grownup who on some days would rather be with kids than most adults.

*A woman loving being back in the workforce after 5 years, even though it's volunteering but I do a little bit of everything and I believe it has helped my illness by giving me something to focus on and accomplish.

*I'm an adult realizing how much of an impact simple things you do for others can really make a difference in their lives and your own.

*I really just want to go back to bed today pull the covers up over my head and stay there for a while and I think I will.

*I'm a little girl inside of an adult that is terrified to lose this woman,my mommy, the one who slowly seems to be slipping away from us. Not so much physically anymore but mentally.



Confession is good for the soul.Who Are You???
Tell me in a comment or post it on your blog & let me know.

Don't Forget to check out my Pay it Forward Contest below this post, all you have to do is leave a comment (up to 4)to enter. There will be three winners by the close of Friday and Roo will be announcing them via video Sat. morning.

Multitude Monday 26-36

Yes, I know I said I was trying to keep my layout but then I was looking at layouts for Daveda and I couldn't help myself. And since it's already 3:30 in the morning I thought I would go ahead and post my Multitude Monday post.

I have not participated in Multitude Mondays in a long time. Times get hard people get sick, then times get harder and it seems like one thing after another comes falling down around you and you forget to thank HIM. You forget, that they could have gotten much worse had HE not stepped in. You forget to see HIM in the small things because you are more focused on the big picture and all the things you would like to fix but have absolutely no power to and I have forgotten lately to even stop to ask for HIS help because I was too caught up in the fear and worry.

So here I am, I come humbly to you Lord to ask your forgiveness for not seeking you first, for accepting the fear Satan freely handed me, for not seeing all the little miracles you have preformed for us lately.
And to tell you how grateful for the multitude of gifts you have given me even when I may not deserve them, you give them freely, just as a Father does.

26-36

*Being welcomed into my child's school and getting to know every one which makes me feel that much better about letting my child go there and has given me more of a purpose.

*For YOUR protection God on Roo when he fell and hit the corner of a bed and gashed his head open, there was a lot of blood but he only needed two staples.

*Fresh Fall air.

*Pumpkin picking and carving with little hands.

*This big window so that I can look out on our two giant trees and watch the beautiful leaves fall to the ground.

*Sparks in my mothers eyes that tell me she is still in there and knows what is going on.

*For my in laws being able to spend a week with the kids even if it weren't under the best of circumstances.

*Pumpkin and Cinnamon candles.

*My aunt who loves to do laundry but loves being my kids MaMaw even more.

*My best friend who just had a recent scare with breast cancer, she is truly my soul sister and has made the last 14 years of my life so much brighter by being in it.

Kee

The Girl I Used to Be

I have been thinking a lot lately. My head feels like a jumbled mess. At times I get so scared of what could happen to those around me I become paralyzed with fear. That's why I haven't blogged much since getting back. I just didn't think I had anything worth saying.

This isn't how I planned my life, I certainly never planned my mom and aunt moving in with us while our kid were still toddlers. I didn't plan my mom being bed bound or my sister not being around to share some of the load. I also did not plan on getting Fibromyhalgia at 33 and having seizures.

No, see my plan was to graduate college, which went according to plan. I then was to go get my masters in social work and somewhere down the line I would adopt children, preferably older.

I never planned that I would meet my husband almost 9 years ago on the Internet, that I would pack up and move to Los Angeles get married in Los Vegas. Then have a son and move back to KY and have a little girl right when our son turned 2.

No, this is not the life I had planned for myself. But thank the Lord He knows so much more than we do. He knows the desires of our hearts.

The storms are brewing all around us but I am hanging on to Him, He is my only hope and He and He alone knows what is best for me and those I love.

I found this poem that I have kept in a folder from a long time ago. I did not write it but it is so fitting. I'm not the girl I used to be and thank God for that!

Hope you enjoy!

The Girl I Used to Be

She came tonight as I sat alone..
The girl I used to be....
And she gazed at me with her earnest eye And questioned reproachfully:

Have you forgotten the many plans
And hopes I had for you?
The great career, the splendid fame,
All the wonderful things to do?

Where is the mansion of stately height
With all its gardens rare?
The silken robes that I dreamed for you
And the jewels in your hair?

And as she spoke, I was very sad
For I wanted her pleased with me...
This slender girl from the shadowy past
The girl that I used to be.

So gently rising, I took her hand
And guided her up the stairs Where peacefully sleeping, my babies lay
innocent, sweet, and fair.

And I told her that these are my only gems,
And precious they are to me;
That silken robes is my motherhood
Of costly simplicity.

And my mansion of stately height is love,
And the only career I know
Is serving each day in these sheltered walls
For the dear ones who come and go.

And as I spoke to my shadowy guest,
She smiled through her tears at me.
And I saw the woman that I am now
pleased the girl I used to be.



by Rowena K. Lewis

Who Am I Wednesdays

* Someone who is thrilled that my FAVORITE season has started.

* A woman trying to deal with all the weight I have gained and fighting every each not to dump the pills that have caused this down the toilet.

* A friend who does not make as many calls as she should.

* A mother who sometimes wonders if I'm giving each of my children the one on one time they deserve.

* A Christian, scared to death, but digging her way back into the word of God.

* Tired of not knowing what tomorrow will bring, we were in the ER all day today with mom after not even unpacking from our trip to NE from hubby's dad being sick.

* Trusting and resting in HIM, He holds tomorrow and if I can just focus on that it's not so scary.

* A blogger loving all the friends I have made on here and loving being able to open up to them in a way I don't normally do in my every day life with people.

* Mother to this adorable little monkey!




So who are you?
Confession is good for the soul.
Tell me in a comment or post it on your blog & let me know.

No, My Husbad Did Not Feed Me to a Buffalo, Updates and info on a Pay it Forward Post

We have been back home about a week. I have been in bed since last Sunday. I finally started feeling better on Sat and was able to unpack everything.

They did not have to do surgery on my FIL's legs. They did an angeogram? and was able to fix two big blood clots in the top part of his leg.The doctor said he still has a lot of little clots from his knees down.So he's still not doing great but he is better.

They are having a hard time getting his diabetes under control. He hasn't taken his insulin in over 3 years. But now he is, I hope he continues. But his doc. told him he had done a lot of damage to his body already by being off insulin for so long.

I will post more about the 16 hour drive, we made it a two day drive there and back
Also, I will post a pic or two from our trip there.

Thank you all for sending up prayers for us. We weren't sure what we would be walking in to at the hospital, I just kept telling myself, I don't know but God does.

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I do have a Pay it Forward post coming and to tell you about the great gifts I received from a wonderful, beautiful, blogger friend. That will be this week, promise.

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There are so many things that I want to post about. But my head is still all jumbled with too much information as it is.

We are on our way to a doctors app. for mom. She is worse than she was before she went into the hospital. She hallucinating, very disoriented, lethargic.

I just feel that I am getting bounced from one emergency to the next.

Hope you all are well and I will start catching up and reading your latest posts tomorrow.